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Sunday, June 28, 2009

Addicted to Looking for Love


As the entire planet is aware, Michael Jackson died suddenly this week. People in almost every country reacted emotionally with tears or by celebrating his life with song and dance. It seems his family and closest friends and confidants were saddened but not shocked by his passing. Tragically, it seems that Michael continued to search for love that eluded him despite the adulation bestowed upon him by millions of fans. He surrounded himself with people who told him what he wanted to hear. His dearest friends, who would tell him the truth, were shut out for the most part.


Most of us only hear what we choose to and believe what we want to believe. We all create our own reality. When that reality becomes toxic or pathological there may be a little voice inside us that whispers, then screams "Enough!!" The choice to heed or ignore that voice belongs to the individual.


Maybe you have been in a situation where it benefits others to keep you in a precarious state. Perhaps you have been the one who keeps another in an emotionally debilitated state to fill your own need. This is the world of the enabler. It is a shameful despicable place to reside.


I do not know the cause of Michael Jackson's death at this point in time. Sources say he had been receiving Demerol injections for pain on a daily basis. If that is true, it is probably criminal. It is a moot point, though. I'm sure that is the least of it. The sycophants and enablers that surrounded Michael reinforced his insistence on medicating himself. It gave them access to him, while his genuine friends could only hope and pray from a distance. This is an all too familiar celebrity scenario. Perhaps prosecuting those individuals to the full extent of the law will send a message to others doing the same. Sadly, I doubt it. Fame and fortune attract the jackals.


We all channel divinity. We are from the same universal energy. Some have an incredible link to that energy, that divinity. We call them geniuses. Whether exploring the stars or becoming a rock star they take us beyond the mundane limits. We are transported to another dimension by sharing the magical energy. Michael Jackson was a genius, no doubt, and will continue to take us higher with his music and incredible videos.



I listened to interviews with Quincy Jones, Berry Gordy and Deepak Chopra, all of whom knew Michael Jackson for many years. They were devastated by his death. Even his family lawyer was so furious he vowed to expose 'the truth'. I wonder what good this will do.






Last year I had a discussion with a dear man who lost a loved one to suicide as have I. I said how sad it was. He agreed and then he said "You do know some people don't want to be saved. He was determined to end his life on this earth and he finally did. I hope he has the peace he never had here. I don't feel guilt or sadness or even anger at him. He did what he had to do."



You may argue that Michael Jackson did not commit suicide. True, he did not take his own life, but each day he played Russian Roulette with it. I don't know, it is tragic.



I do agree with those who say he will live in his music. That is an amazing inheritance he left the world and we are in a much better place for it. He was a boy-man as Paul McCartney said. We could never love him enough. He never could love himself. I hope he watches from out there and sees and feels the love the world has for him. Prayers for his family and friends who loved him beyond words.










Deepak Chopra on Michael Jackson
The Love You Save~haunting lyrics today
Dia de los Muertos, Oaxaca, Mexico 2008

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Restraint Is A Good Thing?


Sagittarius Horoscopes
(Nov 22 - Dec 21)
Next Week
For the Week of Jun 22nd, 2009 -- Your easygoing attitude might not go over so well on Friday night. There's some picky people around you who may not appreciate your outrageous sense of humor. Have fun, of course, but a little self-restraint will probably cast you in a better light. Look for a friend to help you make a new connection or provide a dose of common sense to cool you off.*



Yes, those picky people do have attitude. Well, that's all right. After all, I do find many things amusing, even picky people. Perhaps I should hang with the Capricorns I know. They usually display a good deal of common sense. The trouble is I'm not feeling very restrained. In fact I could say I'm downright rambunctious at the moment.



I have a lot on my plate right now. It's mostly good stuff so I'm very psyched and feeling good. As per usual my problem is focus, but I'm getting better at setting priorities. My book is almost complete. I do love my vampires so it's difficult to end their story. The solution is a second and third book. Yay! There are other things I'd like to write about like Ice Maidens and androids (not the same story :) but for now I'll stay with the undead.



Dia de los Muertos in Oaxaca should be wonderful. Mr. deMeng is teaching some doll making in the deMengian tradition. I'm thinking creepy funky and very cool. Bee Woman makes jewelry and I do multi-media stuff so doll making is a new venue. It's great to work out of your comfort zone, though I must say things are very comfortable in Oaxaca. I dream of having a studio there where I could work outside in a garden setting. You never know...



Right now I'm working on some paper dolls for an AlphaStamps exchange. Next, some Ancestor ATCs for a Red Lead exchange. Then, oh happy day, charms for a Floral/Leaf exchange at AlphaStamps. I love making charms and Leslie over at http://www.alphastamps.com/ has amazing metal, shell and sparkly things for them as well as a treasure chest of other goodies.

I've made a few sketches for a Tarot deck, but that's on the back burner until the book is published and I'm holding a copy in my hand. It will be my reward for turning the vampires loose on society. Please, not all of them are pure evil...just a few. Maybe a whole bunch, but is that so different from our 'real' world? Not so much.



Yes, I do write too. It's good to keep those creative juices flowing. Just to keep myself in check and maintain an easy going but inoffensive attitude I resorted to shoe therapy today. Found a very shiny red slingback and a bronze metallic closed toe sandal. This may mean nothing to you, but to a Sister of Imelda it is a very good thing. Now I will give away two pair to charity. Otherwise I would probably need a shoe room which would be deliciously decadent, but not in keeping with my new 'keep it simple' lifestyle. At the moment it is still a work in progress. I'll let you know how that goes.

Hope you all are enjoying the Summer Solstice. Happy Father's Day to all the dads out there!


*Thanks http://www.tarot.com/
Chipboard doll of Leslie from AlphaStamps

Sunday, June 14, 2009

In The Moment




Sagittarius Horoscopes
(Nov 22 - Dec 21)
Next Week
For the Week of Jun 15th, 2009 -- Being of service to others might not sound like your idea of having a good time this weekend but it still can work to your advantage. If you have a job to do, it might be more fun than you might expect. And, if you're just helping out someone, there's a chance that what starts out as a chore could turn into your kind of party.








Just finished reading Excuses Begone! by Dr. Wayne Dyer. I love reading, listening to and/or watching Dr. Dyer because he's always delivers such a positive message. No coincidence he suggests being of service to others is the key to happiness and wholeness. Obviously, it's in the stars for me. It's no secret though. All the things people do for me, whether large or small acts, make me feel better in some way. The reverse is true. Something as simple as a smile can change a moment from tense to calm and cool.



Just the same, I am feeling a bit tense today. Maybe I need a smile...maybe a scotch. Though I get the concept of living in the now my old worry habit is hard to break. When it comes to family and friends it's difficult to accept the now thing. I am working on this.






I finished these mini assemblage refrigerator magnets for a swap over at AlphaStamps. For some reason I chose black and white birds as a theme. I like the way they turned out. Yes, I'm addicted to glitter of all textures and colors. German scrap too...metallic, rainbow colors and all those cute birds and flowers...oops! I digress. Problem is the magnets are hard to photograph so I used another bird photo for this post. It kind of sums up how I'm feeling at the moment. Not to worry though. According to Dr. Wayne I'll be my carefree jovial self any minute.









Pic~thanks Patti at tuscanrose.com

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Some People

Some People


some people never go crazy.

me, sometimes I'll lie down behind the couch

for 3 or 4 days.

they'll find me there.

it's Cherub, they'll say, and

they pour wine down my throat

rub my chest

sprinkle me with oils.



~Charles Bukowski



Thanks Perceval Press, yeah...

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Full Moon & Roses


Spent time collecting rose petals in the garden today. I'll be trying my hand at making beads from the petals. Seems pretty straightforward...pick petals, dice 'em up, heat with some water, heat again next day, heat again next day and voila! Rose paste for forming beads. Let you know how that works :) It was a lovely day to be outdoors. Sunny, warm and breezy...about 80' It's supposed to rain again for the rest of the week, but the weekends have been beautiful.


I remember a vampire flick titled Blood and Roses. It was a contemporary tale about vampires returning after the war with the usual blood sucking, but there was a scene in a greenhouse with roses and thorns and finger pricks and fangs, anyway, it was very creepy to the teenage me. Despite that emotional trauma I still love roses and vampires.


I'm joining Horror Writer's of America, an organization that speaks for itself. They are a most supportive group and are very generous and encouraging to newbie me. My vampires are feeling most welcome. They may be the lightweights in this group of characters. Hoping they'll be seeing the light of day, so to speak, soon.


There's a Ken doll that's just aching to transform into a vampire, one of the scary flying ones from my book. I have a few ideas involving bats, wings and watch parts. Of course, I do have a Barbie that giggles and I'd love to turn her into a vampire just for spite but I'm not sure how that will work.


The full moon usually has it's way with me. I do get a little loony sometimes. That can work in my favor creatively. It is really ok to be a tad crazy once in a blue moon. Everyone is.


Sagittarius Horoscopes
(Nov 22 - Dec 21)
Next Week
For the Week of Jun 8th, 2009 -- Sticking to a schedule might not be your strong point and could be especially difficult this weekend. Plans shift unexpectedly, promises are forgotten and facts are fuzzy. Pleasure arrives when you're spontaneous, so give yourself permission now to change your mind and adjust your course of action whenever you feel like it.


Yes, like I don't anyway. Well, the planets seem to be aligned for fuzziness so I may as well go with it.


Vampires aren't the only beings with sharp teeth. Ouch!